The boys who make you feel safe.

" Never planned that one day I'd be losing you. "

Okay, hari nii dah masuk 7 bulan 3 hari kau aku punyaa. Sumpah tak perasan masa berlalu. Masa berlalu terlalu cepat. Pejam celik pejam celik, Nisa dah form 4. Ya Allah, aku dah

semakin tua.

Act, I have something to share with you guys. Paan nak masuk asramaaaaaaaa ! :'( sobsob.

Dia dah nak pergi. Pergi tinggalkan Nisa sorang2 dkat sini. Ada tiga hari je dia sekolah dkat seksyen 10. And I was like.. OHMAIGOOD ! Kuat ke Nisa nak hadapi semua masalah sorang2. Kalau dia ada, semua Nisa share dgn dia. But now, he's gonna leave me. Hmm, k, kau kuat Nisa. Dah, you, you take care tau kat sana ? Jangan curang oky ? Alah, Nisa tulis ni pun, bukan dia baca pun. Err, kdiam.

And, this year, Nisa dah dapat kelas Aktif, Biology class but Nisa nak tukar, nak amik account, tukar Amanah. Alah, kalau kelas aktif, nisa bukannya ada kawan pun. So better tukar rite ? Farah akan jadi classmate Nisa if Nisa masuk Amanah. And, mintakmintak bolah tukar. One more thing, next year, balik pukul 1, so balik awaal lah ! haha. Yang sedihnya, takda siapa akan tunggu Nisa balik. Dulu, dia mesti tunggu Nisa sampai pukul 2. Haih, Nisa, dia pergi sekejap jelah, 2 tahun je. Tak lama pun.

So, cuti pun dah habis. Okay, sumpah tak rasa doh cuti tahun ni. ish3. Form 4 kena lebih study, kena struggle untuk form 5 nak SPM. Okay, baru lepas amik result pmr. Nisa dapat 6A 3B jeh. Then, dah diam. Tayah tanya lgi. kbai.

I'm taking it from the start.

" You feel the pain, you deserve the pain, Nisa. "

Okay, act, taktau nak post apa. Just rasa macam bosan, terus sign in blog. Hmm, semua orang rajin update blog diaorg oh. Nisa pelik, diorg setiap kali nak post mesti ada tajuk or main point dia, but bila time Nisa nak update, punyalah pecah kepala nak fikir main point post. heh. -.-

Sebenarnya, I have a BIG BIG BIG problem now. and I don't even know how to settle it without involving the others. Nisa yang cari pasal pi hantar "Hi, please call me back. " kat sorang budak ni. Then, dia call ah, kitaorg otp about 45 min. Macam2 benda kitaorg cakap kot. Then harituh, Paan text Nisa, "Saya memang suka awak call2 dengan kawan saya." peh, tersentap baca text tuh. Malam tuh Paan call, ingatkan dia marah, act tak pun. Then, Nisa tanya psal text tuh, siapa yang Paan maksudkan dgn "kawan saya". Paan tak jawab. At last, dia bgi tau Nisa, yang kawan dia tuh bgtau dia sendiri, Nisa ingatkan budak yang Nisa otp 45 min tuh.Punyalah lurus Nisa ni, terus honest dgn dia ckap Nisa curang dgn Paan, Nisa otp dgn budak nih, budak tuh lah. Teruk kan Nisa ? weeeeeell. -.- then semalam budak yang otp dgn Nisa dia hantar text ni,

"Nisa, if nisa still in relationship , please cakap awal2. I've done a big mistake by calling you. Sorry kacau. Be loyal to Paan, okay ? I'm sorry, please forgive me."

"Nisa jangan break dengan Paan, tolonglah, pleasee ? ******* tanak jadi penyebab korang perpecah okay ? Sorry for everything. Dah, kbye."

Seriously, I'm crying after read the text. Damn. Memang Nisa dgn Paan dah break, but Paan tak boleh accept benda ni. Dia still admit yg kitaorg still together. Yeah, I still love him and because of it I want to let him go. Nisa tau, Paan ada cakap something dgn budak tuh, budak tuh rasa bersalah terus lah text nisa yang atas tdi tuh. At the same time, Paan text Nisa, yang dia kata dia tengah marah. Nisa risau suruh dia call Nisa, but he's not doing it. Dia kata " If I feel like I want to call you, I'll call you." At the whole night I'm waiting for his call but he's not call me even text me to say goodnight. -.-Dang it. Then, sampai sekarang dia langsung tak text Nisa or call Nisa. Hm, I don't know what should I do right now. So, that's it. Nisa akan cuba cari jalan to solve this problem. Ohh, btw, sorry for all my wrongdoings. Korang tayah terasa pape keh ? kbai.

Fading in the distance.

" Everyday same old things, so you're still feeling pain. "

Heyyaww, long time no see, rite ? Seems like I've been very busy before and after PMR exam. Pelik en, habis PMR patutnyaa dah tak busy, ni tak, makin busy. Lol. Tolong mak punya pasal. Ohh, btw, vid kat atas tuh takda motif pun act. Nisa letak just for fun. Hihi. So, korang buat apa dohh cuti ni ? Mesti melencong sana, melencong sini. Heh, jealousnya, Nisa ddk rumah just tolong mak jeh. T.T sobsob. Cakap pasal form 4 tahun depan kan, mesti macam nak nangis ohh. Yelah, nanti mesti ramai yang pindah. Masuk sbp lah, mrsm lah, teknik lah, sekolah apa bagai. Nanti semua dah ada kawan baru and terus lupa kawan lama. Eei, taksuka ah. -.- Boleh tak kalau tanak masuk form 4 and just stay kat form 3 jeh. Mesti best oh. Then, Macam2 subject baru yang kene amik. Addmath ? ohmai. -.- sumpah seram. Hopefully dapat score. Amin. Then, tak sabar oh, Selasa ni, explorace form 3. Lol, comfirm ramai yang dah buat cuti sendiri oh. Yelah, sekolah dah tak belajar, buang masa je dtg sekolah melepak tak tentu pasal. Nisa pun hari tuh buat cuti sendiri, ingat nak cuti seminggu terus but tak jadi disebabkan kena buat PAFA. And, alhamdulillah, nisa dah habis dah buat PAFA. So, korang cuti nanti, jaga diri baik2 tau. Don't do stupid things keyh. Bye peeps ! :)

Tell me something sweet to get me by.

" There is no happiness without tears, no life without death. "

The truth is, I'm one of those few people who actually cares when I ask " What's wrong ? " . The problem is that usually I have no idea what to say afterwards or how to make it better.
I try not to use phrases like " That sucks. " or " I'm sorry. " , but I still can never find the right words to say. But I promise, I'll always listen. I guess that's all I can do. :)